A Pain in My A**
I've been struggling with sciatica. This isn't news. I have been dealing with butt and leg pain intermittently over the last 18 months. So much so that I even tried an epidural (which didn't turn out to be so fun, if you remember my blog after that "brouhaha"). Right now I feel butt and leg pain and am experiencing intermittent numbness in my leg and foot. I liken the butt pain to sitting on a golf ball. Ibuprofen offers little relief and I took a round of prednisone which offered only slight, if any, relief. The fact that I have been unable to get in under control despite drugs and me doing all my back exercises three times a day was enough to get my family doctors immediate attention and he ordered an MRI for Monday. He remembers all too well the last time we were addressing sciatica and he is taking no chances on me this time.I have to sigh and wonder when I am going to get a break from all the drama of cancer. I mean I understand the urgency and the worry about me but I just really want a rest from all of it. I got to wondering, what makes me so special that I think that I am above the statistics? I know of several people I have met with anal cancer that have recurred recently and I even know a few that, much to my heartbreak, have lost their battles with the disease. Frankly, I am a stage 4 victim and I realistically will recur sometime and if you believe the statistics it will be relatively soon. Even if I don't subscribe to that thinking the health care providers that care for me operate under the facts and not my hopes and dreams. SO...tomorrow I am having an MRI and we will all know the truth behind my butt pain. There is no relief for me from the chains of cancer and I have found that even in remission anal cancer continues to be a pain in my ass!