A Pain in My A**

I've been struggling with sciatica. This isn't news. I have been dealing with butt and leg pain intermittently over the last 18 months. So much so that I even tried an epidural (which didn't turn out to be so fun, if you remember my blog after that "brouhaha"). Right now I feel butt and leg pain and am experiencing intermittent numbness in my leg and foot. I liken the butt pain to sitting on a golf ball. Ibuprofen offers little relief and I took a round of  prednisone which offered only slight, if any, relief. The fact that I have been unable to get in under control despite drugs and me doing all my back exercises three times a day was enough to get my family doctors immediate attention and he ordered an MRI for Monday. He remembers all too well the last time we were addressing sciatica and he is taking no chances on me this time.

I have to sigh and wonder when I am going to get a break from all the drama of cancer. I mean I understand the urgency and the worry about me but I just really want a rest from all of it. I got to wondering, what makes me so special that I think that I am above the statistics? I know of several people I have met with anal cancer that have recurred recently and I even know a few that, much to my heartbreak, have lost their battles with the disease. Frankly, I am a stage 4 victim and I realistically will recur sometime and if you believe the statistics it will be relatively soon. Even if I don't subscribe to that thinking the health care providers that care for me operate under the facts and not my hopes and dreams. SO...tomorrow I am having an MRI and we will all know the truth behind my butt pain. There is no relief for me from the chains of cancer and I have found that even in remission anal cancer continues to be a pain in my ass! 

Texas Jeff threw a punch at your cancer.
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I so understand ..I have had the same feelings about reoccurrence even though mine was discovered early..but I do know that statistics are defined by so many variables that you cannot really depend on them..good or bad...but as you know...if we have to pick which way to go..always go with the positive..though this is easier said then done...and by the way..I'm not one of those over the top positive people!! But I love how your faith really grounds you..you are so inspiring..even when you are troubled..your faith shines through. Know my prayers are with you..peace and love, Lori in AZ
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Michele, Michele, just think about those flip-flops...you have put them on again and have to deal with this beast...but Lori is right, you are not a statistic, you are you and you are a FIGHTER! Waiting for news tomorrow..XOXO
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I am praying for a clean MRI. Hugs, Linda
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Read onward and upward...the results are in! The posts were delayed because of the new format. It took me a while to figure it all out! MRI showed scar tissue and more importantly no tumor regrowth! Thanks for the prayers and support :)
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What wonderful news. Like you when I am due my next MRI all the questions keep coming into your mind. I wonder if it is a sort of defence mechanism. after my second clear scan my oncologist said "You are a year out with two clear scan. We can now put you in the 70% bracket" Threw me a bit as I hang on to the fact that we have a rare cancer that responds well to the treatment we have had. Antway just had mt third clear scan so hopefully we may be messing up the statistics. PS Still trying to sort out your book with the publisher - I will get there!!! Take care Annabelle
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Great news about the NED Not so good for your pain and numbness. Scar tissue... No disc compression? I know there must be many things you have/will look into to get relief. I wish you well on that journey as well. Betty
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January 31, 1963 - June 10, 2020

Vital Info


October 3, 2011

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January 31, 1963

June 10

Cancer Info

Anal Cancer

Squamous Cell Carcinoma of the anus

February 5, 2010

Stage 4

2.1 - 3.0 cm

Grade 3


As much as possible

Proceeds from my published blog donated monthly

It is a thief

You have to live every day of your life and stay positive :)

Donate $$ to the anal cancer foundation. Raising awareness saves lives!

Is there anything good about poison?

Bone, lung recurrence 9/20/2012

Cancer Center of Kansas, MD Anderson

Bland diet, sitz baths, take your drugs...nobody gets extra credit for suffering.

Talk, talk, talk to somebody. I chose to write.

April 20, 2010

September 20, 2010

Rectal bleeding, itching, sciatic pain. (thought my hemorhoid was acting up)

My blog has been published and proceeds go to The HPV and Anal Cancer Foundation. http://tinyurl.com/72bjjfp


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