Definitely Without Hesitation

I have had this little blog crashing around in my brain and struggling to get out since before Christmas. With all the demands of the holiday and my New Years beach vacation I pushed it back and would not let the words flow. Sometimes when I do that the words die off never to be written down. This time that is not the case and I am unleashing the words and freeing my mind of these thoughts that I feel compelled to share. It was Saturday December 21st, the first day of Christmas break for our area schools. There was also a prediction for snow, 3-5 inches perhaps would accumulate. A white Christmas could be in order and a smooth path for Santa be made on area roof tops. I love snow, that is no secret, so I was hoping it would come to pass just as the meterologists predicted. I left the house late morning to run some last minute holiday errands. The sky was full of clouds that appeared heavy and gray colored but snow had not yet started to fall although they looked strained and anxious to provide the crystal moisture. As I cruised through my neighborhood two children caught my eye. They were out in their yard bundle in heavy winter gear. Coats, mittens, hats and scarves, even boots. They also had unloaded the garage of all the supplies one might need for a snowy day, two snow shovels and a couple of saucer sleds. They were dancing around their yard in a way that reminded of a rain dance...this, of course, being a snow dance in anticipation of what was to come. Not a flake in the air yet but these youngsters revealed such joy and anticipation of what was to come. It was a pure and beautiful thing. All of the holiday stress and pressure I had piled on myself melted away in that moment. These kids were on to something. Christmas was coming and I needed to get ready. So much to do to prepare for what was to come, but instead of stressing about each task I needed to embrace them, enjoy them in anticipation of what is come! I smiled as I drove past thinking "That's living! Really living!" Since that day I have thought of those kids often, their excitement, their joy, their belief in what was to predicted come. They knew it was going to be good and they welcomed it in without hesitation even before a single flake had manifested itself! I want to live my life like that everyday, to believe it's going to be good and welcome it with joy, and anticipation and definitely without hesitation :)

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This is beautiful. Thank you so much for this image and mindset. Carpe diem!
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This is beautiful. Hope in action. Thank you, Michele. Danean
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Awesome! Thank you for sharing this with us! I really needed to hear that as the new semester starts tomorrow and I'm teaching. I've been dreading it because I'm not sure what's going to happen or how well I'll do. By turning trepidation into anticipation, perhaps I can enjoy the ride and maybe even perform better. Glad to hear that you are in good spirits! I hope you are physically feeling well, too. :)
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Your just a snow angel! Love this story! hugs and love Sabina
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thats an unknown scene here Michele, although easily imagined thanks to tv and news shows. (we're preparing for a heat wave this week with high fire danger alerts!) the feeling of gratitude and joy and anticipation of new seasons in a new year are universal though! thank you for sharing.
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As I have posted before, I start most days listening to "It's a Beautiful Day" by U2, because every day is one. tj
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Yes! Absolutely with joy anticipation and without hesitation!
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January 31, 1963 - June 10, 2020

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October 3, 2011

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January 31, 1963

June 10

Cancer Info

Anal Cancer

Squamous Cell Carcinoma of the anus

February 5, 2010

Stage 4

2.1 - 3.0 cm

Grade 3


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